Today is hard for me..Harder than it ever was,i think..I was walking and thinking in myself about u..I was expecting whole time to see u,i was almoust sure i will..I though he will bring u from the sky in front of me...I though he'll let me touch u,hug u,kiss u,see ur beautiful smile..
I cant forgive u for making me this wounded,u left me when i needed u the most..Im full of cuts,scars,pain,mistakes..
It doesent matter anymore what will happen with me,because U r in me,only from the outside I am ME..
I wonder y do i get to have all that pain,y i cant just have what i want?!
While my heart is destroyed,r r telling to other girls that u love them..
And u r still lieing whenever i talk to u..
It even hurts me when u say ''I LOVE U''..I used to be melted because of those two words.They were enough to make me be in clouds all fucking day..God is my witness..I was flying babe!My wings were so divine and beautiful,like a white angels wings..But than..I fell!Into reality!!..
And now that i know ur not ment to be with me,it kills me!If i know that im not going to have u,I got nothing to fight for..I give up with my heart,soul and my body..Just as I was ready to give up to you..
Im looking at sky and i see no colour..All i see r dark clouds in the distance,and im thinking:''its going to rain''..
And it was..Now,while my hand writes,it continues to fall..I wonder:''Is that maybe him crying?..Or is it God because he realized he made a mistake?Leted us to find eachother,fall in love even if we r separated for miles..Leted me feel u in dreams,and punished me to not have u in reality..Now he is sitting up and he's sorry.He sees us and knows how much he hurted me..
Well, the Almighty,YOU who can do anything:to make a source of water in desert,to walk on water,and live after death..Dont u see him and me?My voice and crying do not reach to u??How come ur ears dont hurt u from all of my praying and crying at night?U dont hear it?..
I know u do..I know ur sorry..Do something,i beg u..
He told me that he will always love me no matter what. :/ I dont want him to love me because it hurts me so much.I love him more than myself..I dont want him to get hurt,i'd give my life just because of him!
Why r u just watching? :'( Do something,before i do something to me..I cant hold this anymore.Its strangling me,and i dont know what to do..Please take me to him..Dont i deserve a littlebit of happines?..
PUT AN END TO THIS PAIN.I KNOW U CAN.
I cant forgive u for making me this wounded,u left me when i needed u the most..Im full of cuts,scars,pain,mistakes..
It doesent matter anymore what will happen with me,because U r in me,only from the outside I am ME..
I wonder y do i get to have all that pain,y i cant just have what i want?!
While my heart is destroyed,r r telling to other girls that u love them..
And u r still lieing whenever i talk to u..
It even hurts me when u say ''I LOVE U''..I used to be melted because of those two words.They were enough to make me be in clouds all fucking day..God is my witness..I was flying babe!My wings were so divine and beautiful,like a white angels wings..But than..I fell!Into reality!!..
And now that i know ur not ment to be with me,it kills me!If i know that im not going to have u,I got nothing to fight for..I give up with my heart,soul and my body..Just as I was ready to give up to you..
Im looking at sky and i see no colour..All i see r dark clouds in the distance,and im thinking:''its going to rain''..
And it was..Now,while my hand writes,it continues to fall..I wonder:''Is that maybe him crying?..Or is it God because he realized he made a mistake?Leted us to find eachother,fall in love even if we r separated for miles..Leted me feel u in dreams,and punished me to not have u in reality..Now he is sitting up and he's sorry.He sees us and knows how much he hurted me..
Well, the Almighty,YOU who can do anything:to make a source of water in desert,to walk on water,and live after death..Dont u see him and me?My voice and crying do not reach to u??How come ur ears dont hurt u from all of my praying and crying at night?U dont hear it?..
I know u do..I know ur sorry..Do something,i beg u..
He told me that he will always love me no matter what. :/ I dont want him to love me because it hurts me so much.I love him more than myself..I dont want him to get hurt,i'd give my life just because of him!
Why r u just watching? :'( Do something,before i do something to me..I cant hold this anymore.Its strangling me,and i dont know what to do..Please take me to him..Dont i deserve a littlebit of happines?..
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