when im with him i am thinking of u.

we r talking..we r so good..u made even a pic for me !^_^
i love u so much..i cant breathe if i dont talk to u :// <3<3<3
i love u more than anything <3

i miss u so much ]: <3

Im talking to u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'33333

Ive send him a mess today and he answered to me :'3

im so happy <3

we r kinda like bff now xD <3333

i love him so much ^_^ <33333

I will be right here waiting for u.

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain 
If I see you next to never 
How can we say forever 

Wherever you go 
Whatever you do 
I will be right here waiting for you 
Whatever it takes 
Or how my heart breaks 
I will be right here waiting for you 

I took for granted, all the times 
That I though would last somehow 
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears 
But I can't get near you now 

Oh, can't you see it baby 
You've got me goin' CrAzY 

Wherever you go 
Whatever you do 
I will be right here waiting for you 
Whatever it takes 
Or how my heart breaks 
I will be right here waiting for you 

I wonder how we can survive 
This romance 
But in the end if I'm with you 
I'll take the chance 

Oh, can't you see it baby 
You've got me goin' cRaZy 

Wherever you go 
Whatever you do 
I will be right here waiting for you 
Whatever it takes 
Or how my heart breaks I will be right here waiting for you 

its so hard to live without ur smile..:'(

I don't wish to be everything to u, but I would like to be something .

We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.Thats how i know ur perfect <3


Have you ever wondered which hurts the most: saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing, and wishing you had? 


In my wildest dreams, you always play the hero. In my darkest hour of night, you rescue me, you save my life.


Within you I lose myself. Without you I find 
myself wanting to become lost again.


True Love burns the brightest, But the brightest flames leave the deepest scars.

Every day is much worse than yesterday,and YOU'RE NOT HERE..You r never here...

YOU.

The words have been drained from this pencil
Sweet words that I want to give you
And I can't sleep
I need to tell you
Goodnight 

When we're together, I feel perfect
When I'm pulled away from you, I fall apart
All you say is sacred to me
Your eyes are so blue
I can't look away
As we lay in the stillness
You whisper to me 
Amy, marry me
Promise you'll stay with me
Oh you don't have to ask me
You know you're all that I live for
You know I'd die just to hold you
Stay with you
Somehow I'll show you
That you are my night sky
I've always been right behind you
Now I'll always be right beside you 
So many nights I cried myself to sleep
Now that you love me, I love myself
I never thought I would say this
I never thought there'd be
You 

STILL THE SUN CANT WARM MY FACE.

Everything turned out so wrong..

Why did u leave me in silence..

Goodbye my love Goodbye forever i live for u i die for u!

goodbye!

i will always love u!

FOREVER!

You belong to me!! :(

You gave me something i never had! :'(

Im waiting for a miracle.

All i need is one piecefull dream..Next to u..Babe..:'(
i wish so much u were here..
dont u remember our conversation's?
they were so deep and honest..
if i could,i'd talk to u every moment of my life..
only i know how i feel..no one can understand..
this distance is fucking destroying me!
no one knows how am i.
i have everything i never wanted to..i got pain,sorrow,broken hurt,destroyed soul..

Someone finds salvation in others,i find it in pain.

Sometimes..I just have it enough!..

And still..u'r so speciall..

I am destroyed.
I cry for u.
I dream u.
I want u.
I miss u.
I love u.
I feel u.
I had u.
I lost u.

The more i see,the less i know.

Where were you? When everything was falling apart?

...

You gave up the fight,u left me behind!

yep.

i still cant forgive u..

U gave up the fight u left me behind!
U'll always be mine i know deep inside!

Here I am..Left in silence.

The Stars Seem Out Of Reach..

Times like this remind me who I am,what I am.EPIC FAIL.

I'm screaming at the top of my voice..Give me reason,but dont give me choice..

I swear I'd sell my soul to be a hero for you!

Days like this..

Days like this are..No worth of living..
I wish i could escape,at least for a 5 min..
I wish everything could go right ..That's impossible.

The body and the brain r driving me insane!But the wing,land and the fire are still the same..

Looking back over my shoulder I saw that look in your eyes..I need u..

Sometimes u picture me.. I'm walking far ahead you're calling me,I can't hear what you've said..

I'm without u now.

A hundred days had made me older
since the last time that I've saw your pretty face 
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same

But all the miles had separate
They disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face 
I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me 

The miles just keep rollin
as the people either way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
but I hope that it gets better as we go 
I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me 
Everything I know, 
and anywhere I go 
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love 
And when the last one falls, 
when it’s all said and done 
it get hard but it won’t take away my love 

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me ..

It's easier to leave than to be left.
It's amazing how one person can make your worst day feel incredibly perfect.
Why is it so hard to accept things as they are?
Why do we struggle and fight against the inevitable?
Is it the knowledge that things could be better?
Or is it the hope? The hope that if things
were different, we would be different.
Better. Stronger. Complete.

My mask on my face looks perfectly divine.No one would ever doubt whats under.

I have a dream,a fantasy,to help me through reality.

A moment:
Dissapointing
Unpossible
Unwanted
Incrediblle
Colourfull
Different
Amazing
Unusuall

Stunning

Speciall

Hidden

Unreall

Happy

Weird
Warm
Short
New
Sad

Maybe fake..But still mine ;)

I dont want to go in,but i am

I want to leave,but i stay

I want to not believe,but I am

I want to believe that im different,but im the same

I dont want it to be immportant,but it is..

How?I dont know.Why?I dont know that neither.

And I like dark now more than light.

And l like silence more than noice.

I just want to find a place where I dont find YOU.

It is so sad that one period of my life ended,and not one deep and hidden dream came true..
Now at the beginning of the second,i still hope for the same dreams,and pray to God every night.
Childhood with no succes..
Where should  I go now?Cos ive been to some places ive never knew they  were real..And I've lived many times in place that i dont know yet..
Dont bother my love,I wont die of deception.Promise:You wont ever see me cry.

I WAS BLIND.
I WAS BLIND.
I WAS BLIND.

I WAS BLIND.

What I've Felt What I've Known Never Shined Through In What I've Shown Never Be Never See Won't See What Might Have Been What I've Felt What I've Known Never Shined Through In What I've Shown Never Free Never Me So I Dub The UNFORGIVEN.

Yep.

Ur immposible to find.

Best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying......
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that i will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear its true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find 

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start

Oh, But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
'Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find 

Some people make your life better
by walking into it, and others simply
make it better by walking out of it.

Two things that hurt: When someone loves you
but does not tell you, and when someone does not
love you but keeps on telling you.


Trying to forget someone you love is like
trying to rememeber someone you have never met.


In your life, you meet people. Some you never
think about again. Some, you wonder what
happened to them. There are some that you
wonder if they ever think about you. And
then, there are some you wish you never
had to think about again, but you still do.

-GOODBYE-

It's a shame that it had to be this way
It's not enough to say I'm sorry
It's not enough to say I'm sorry

Maybe I'm to blame
Or maybe we're the same
But either way I can’t breathe
Either way I can’t breathe

All I had to say is goodbye
We're better off this way
We're better off this way

I'm alive but I’m losing all my drive
Cause everything we're been through
And everything about you

Seemed to be a lie
A guiltless twisted lie
It made me learn to hate you
Or hate myself for letting it pass by

All I had to say is goodbye
We're better off this way
We're better off this way

All I had to say is goodbye
We're better off this way
We're better off this way
And every, everything isn't only
What it seemed so hold these
Words that you never told me
It's time to say goodbye
It's time to say goodbye
It's time to say goodbye
Goodbye

Bye...

Take my pain away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

Take my pain away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

Take my pain away
Spell it out
Tell me I was wrong
Tell me I was wrong

How to turn around my back..
U didnt want my love.I was just a toy who was learning to love..What do u want from me when i gave u everything?Do u remember?!Or u maybe forgot..
Now..U cant even hurt me..U have learned me one thing,tho.Nothing can hurt me now..NOTHING.
The pain that u were making in my heart became nothing.I cant love anymore,i cant hate..I cant feel.
I believed i didnt need anything when i had u.And after everything,i still have hope! -.-
But i'm glad because that hope gave me strength to move on,with my head high!And i dont need u now..
U r the biggest unhappines of my life.U got no idea how many tears i had because of the love that never really was,because of the happines that was unhappines instead.I want to hate u,but i feel sorry for u..You disgust me!
It turns out ur bastard,coward.Now i shake because im so mad at myself.

I wish if u could feel what i feel.And i dont have to meet u ever again because ill never see a man in u!

..How many times i wanted to wake up and be happy..
..I forgot that feeling,thats y i stopped smiling..
..Im starting to be afraid of the mirror because i see big sadness in my eyes..
..No,i dont blame u,i blame me..
..I dont even blame my heart,who only tried to love u..
..Im not going to blame life either,because thats destiny ment for me..
..Y would i fight it?Y dont i just enjoy in sadness..?..
..Is that possible?..Maybe not..
..But im still going to try,maybe i'll be the only one who can be happy in sadness..
..Because everything is possible today!..
..I never asked too much..
..I just wanted someone to love me..
..EVERYTIME WHEN U LEAVE ME,I MAKE BIGGER AND BIGGER WALL..

Every day i miss u more and more.

Today is hard for me..Harder than it ever was,i think..I was walking and thinking in myself about u..I was expecting whole time to see u,i was almoust sure i will..I though he will bring u from the sky in front of me...I though he'll let me touch u,hug u,kiss u,see ur beautiful smile..
I cant forgive u for making me this wounded,u left me when i needed u the most..Im full of cuts,scars,pain,mistakes..
It doesent matter anymore what will happen with me,because U r in me,only from the outside I am ME..
I wonder y do i get to have all that pain,y i cant just have what i want?!
While my heart is destroyed,r r telling to other girls that u love them..
And u r still lieing whenever i talk to u.. 
It even hurts me when u say ''I LOVE U''..I used to be melted because of those two words.They were enough to make me be in clouds all fucking day..God is my witness..I was flying babe!My wings were so divine and beautiful,like a white angels wings..But than..I fell!Into reality!!..
And now that i know ur not ment to be with me,it kills me!If i know that im not going to have u,I got nothing to fight for..I give up with my heart,soul and my body..Just as I was ready to give up to you..
Im looking at sky and i see no colour..All i see r dark clouds in the distance,and im thinking:''its going to rain''..
And it was..Now,while my hand writes,it continues to fall..I wonder:''Is that maybe him crying?..Or is it God because he realized he made a mistake?Leted us to find eachother,fall in love even if we r separated for miles..Leted me feel u in dreams,and punished me to not have u in reality..Now he is sitting up and  he's sorry.He sees us and knows how much he hurted me..
Well, the Almighty,YOU who can do anything:to make a source of water in desert,to walk on water,and live after death..Dont u see him and me?My voice and crying do not reach to u??How come ur ears dont hurt u from all of my praying and crying at night?U dont hear it?..
I know u do..I know ur sorry..Do something,i beg u..
He told me that he will always love me no matter what. :/ I dont want him to love me because it hurts me so much.I love him more than myself..I dont want him to get hurt,i'd give my life just because of him!
Why r u just watching? :'( Do something,before i do something to me..I cant hold this anymore.Its strangling me,and i dont know what to do..Please take me to him..Dont i deserve a littlebit of happines?..

PUT AN END TO THIS PAIN.I KNOW U CAN.

I see the future..Its like the present..Only much much longer!

Some people come into our lives,but they leave fast.Some of them put prints on our soul,after what we'll never be the same.

If I could be anyone at this moment,I'd be her so you'd love me too.

Stay with me :'( !!

My whole life waiting for the right time
To tell you how I feel.
Know I try to tell you that I need you.
Here I am without you.
I feel so lost but what can I do?
'Cause I know this love seems real
But I don't know how to feel.

We say goodbye in the pouring rain
And I break down as you walk away.
Stay, stay.
'Cause all my life I felt this way
But I could never find the words to say
Stay, stay.

Alright, everything is alright
Since you came along
And before you
I had nowhere to run to
Nothing to hold on to
I came so close to giving it up.
And I wonder if you know
How it feels to let you go?

You say goodbye in the pouring rain
And I break down as you walk away.
Stay, stay.
'Cause all my life I felt this way
But I could never find the words to say
Stay, stay.

So you change your mind
And say you're mine.
Don't leave tonight
Stay.

Say goodbye in the pouring rain
And I break down as you walk away.
Stay, stay.
'Cause all my life I felt this way
But I could never find the words to say
Stay, stay.

Stay with me, stay with me,
Stay with me, stay with me,
Stay, stay, stay, stay with me.

U said u never wanted to hurt me..
What happened?
U closed ur eyes when i cried?
U though that it wouldnt hurt so much?..
Did u even love me like u were saying?
I know u did..It hurts me so much that I  expected so much from u..
Its like my mind knows what its right,but my retarted heart still cares!

At the moment when i lost u,i lost everything i had.

It hurts to see the one you love happy with someone else,but it is more painful to see the one you are with unhappy with you.

You will know that you love someone  when you want him/her to be happy,even if that means you're not a part of their happiness.

My heart belongs for you,my soul dies for you,my eyes cry for you,my empty arms reach out for you.

Im going back in thinking of u every second..I cant believe what happened ..
I cant explain how much it hurts me..Im faking the smile every fucking day,but inside im dieing!
How could u do that to me? :'(
i loved u...i believed in u!
id do anything for u,and u payed me back by hurting me?by breaking my heart into pieces?
i would be there for u in any moment..
The hardest part is that i know u betrayed me..And still i love u with all of my heart..
It is so hard to let someone go eeven if u still love him..
i hate to see u happy with someone else!!!!
but..im calm..because when ur happy,im happy..</3

we could be happy <3
i lv u babe..


I had a dream and it was about you ...
I smiled and recalled the memories we had ...
then I noticed a tear fell from my eyes ... you know why?
Coz in my dream you kissed me and said goodbye ...
</3 Mathew </3

I live for u..But im not alive..