Betrayed.

Small word but lots of meanings and pain.

So here I am,once again..Betrayed by the person that means everything to me.

What can i say?Im dumb,I already know that.

But theres smth more.Its not the same anymore.

You r back with her.I cant believe it.

I cant even cry anymore.Im not sure i love u anymore either.Actually i know i love u.I always will.

But..Its deep inside.It cant get out anymore.It was calling u so many times for help but u throw it away.

It hurts it so much to come out now,and say ''I love u''.

It has hiden DEEP inside where not even i can make it to come back.

Its scared,i guess.So many fails,one by one,it lost its faith.

Like i did.I find myself watching a tv,and than i just start crying.Its the worst feeling in the world.

And all i can think of is ''WHY?!''.

I cant trust no one now.It became immposible to just think about it.

Thats y i  pretend i dont care.Its much easier for me.Much easier.

People say things but they know they cant hurt me anymore.

U made me feel like a monster.Which i am now.

So..Thank you.No one can hurt me now.But u.

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I know they say that if they dont come back again then its meant to be
But those words aint pulling me through cos im still in love with u :'(

ahha look at u :3 :'(

aaa!!! *_*

u made this for me :3 i LOVE this picture! i remember when u send it to me u were like ''there u go pictures i did this all morning'' hahahah <3
I LOVE U SO MUCH! <3

It's Monday.I used to be happy at this day.Actually i used to be happy at every day of the week but this one is special.Hm..i used ''is''.Well no,it WAS speciall.
It was the time when we watched eachother on camera.
Wow...I  can't believe how happy and exited was i..When i looked at u i though in myself is it possible?How it can be that u were so preety? O.o
You were like the preetiest guy i have ever seen..Like the hundred of butterflies came in me and started dancing..
I know its dumb but i felt llike it was ''love on a first sight''.I could cry how happy i was..How preety u were..And when i said something funny..Oh God..u'd bring out ur little gorgeous smile..And i knew everything is worht it..But i felt pain..I dont know why..I just did..
I cant explane the feeling i felt every time i saw u..i never felt that way.I LOVE U SO MUCH..
I dont know what to do anymore..

How can i think of a better tomorrow when yesterday took evrything i had???

Your one and only.Your the only one i want.

I dont know why am i scared?!
i have been here before.It will be one more night of pain,tears,loneliness.

Only God know's how much im suffering.

He takes the spear meant for a wreck like me,His presence make sense as it creates a scene of pleasure in my mind,where he'll go I must follow to endure everlasting happiness and harmony that my soul craves for,He takes the sun when he walks away but he always saves the day,
I can feel him come down the alley of my heart's fatal desire to eternally love a goddess,Hes garnishes all that he touches with a golden sparkle of hope and pure devotion.

His eyes have inspired the hopeless to fly among angels in the skies of a far world,
My spirit silently cries to be guarded by hia golden wings then I'll never feel cold or fear ever again,
Our void of mystery tears me apart with blunt thoughts as my mind walks in the air whenever I walk alone,My deep silent minor heaven longs for an angel to embrace its misunderstood fields of faith and hope,

He cries in my arms as I embrace his spirit.

End me now.

Kill the core of me, For I know not what has become of me,
Pierce my heart with a red-hot dagger of truth and wisdom,
The end of me stares closely waiting for my wrong and fatal move,
Will I rise above its mortal spite?

Hope fights fear as my mind battles a body of
Thoughts of the years dead to all,
My wounded life bleeds innocence every time
I see her die in my arms, The core of me rests on
An unmarked headstone in the grave of the forsaken,

Shame and blame glares with a kiss that leaves
Me dead in my mortal realm,I fall first as the ghosts
Of the victimized tear my soul to ashes, The burning
Bridge of misery is no more...as the killing of me starts
At midnight, But I have to rise above this broken rush
Of emotions and become what I was.