U dont deserve anything from me anymore.

Now i know that everything ur brother was saying is truth.
u fucking son of a bitch!!!
I WANTED TO BE THERE FOR U AND U THROW MY LOVE UNDER UR FEET AND USED ME IN THE MOST HURTFULL WAY HOW COULD U DO THAT IDIOT?!
DONT U FEEL ANYTHING ?! U DONT HAVE HEART AND U MADE ME NOT HAVE ONE 2!
OH GOD..THIS IS TOO MUCH..

I just cant forgive you :/
Why is it so hard?I wonder every night what dou do.Are u sleeping or ur thinking how awful u were to me :/

You said this could only get better. 
There's no rush, 'cause we have each other. 
You said this would last forever, 
But now i doubt if i was your only lover. 

Are we just lost in time? 
I wonder if your love's the same. 
'Cause I'm not over you 

Baby, don't talk to me. 
I'm trying to let go 
Not loving you is harder then you know. 
'Cause girl you're driving me so crazy 

How can i miss you if you never would stay? 
If you need time i guess I'll go away. 
Inside me now there's only heartache and pain. 
So where's the fire? 
You've become the rain. 

Are we just lost in time? 
I wonder if your love's the same 
'cause I'm not over you. 

Baby, don't talk to me 
I'm trying to let go 
Not loving you is harder then you know, 
('cause girl your driving me so crazy) 

And if you don't want me then 
i guess I'll have to go.. 
Not loving you is harder then you know. 

yeah 


So I'll make the call, 
and I'll leave today 
I'm gonna miss you 'cause i love you baby 
Yeah, I'll make the call 
I'm leaving today 

Leaving always drives me crazy. ]x2] 

Baby, don't talk to me 
I'm trying to let go. 
Not loving you is harder 
Then you know, 

yeah 

Baby, don't talk to me 
I'm trying to let go (I'm trying to let go) 
Not loving you is harder 
Then you know, 
('cause girl your driving me so crazy) 

and if you don't want me then 
i guess I'll hav'ta go! (I guess I'll hav'ta go) 
not loving you is harder then you know 
(girl your driving me so crazy) 

Baby, don't talk to me 
I'm trying to let go. 
Not loving you is harder, then you know, 
girl your driving me so crazy.

Between You and I,he could never compare to you.Maybe it's all for the best but i just dont see any good in this,no.,

U made me happy as i never was.
Now..Wow..i feel like im carring so many nifes..I've been through a lot.And i shoudnt have.It is just too much for me.And still I'm asking myself how could i bee so dumb?! 
I'm running in circles.I feel like there is no way out! O_o

I'm going back to the start..

Betrayed.

Small word but lots of meanings and pain.

So here I am,once again..Betrayed by the person that means everything to me.

What can i say?Im dumb,I already know that.

But theres smth more.Its not the same anymore.

You r back with her.I cant believe it.

I cant even cry anymore.Im not sure i love u anymore either.Actually i know i love u.I always will.

But..Its deep inside.It cant get out anymore.It was calling u so many times for help but u throw it away.

It hurts it so much to come out now,and say ''I love u''.

It has hiden DEEP inside where not even i can make it to come back.

Its scared,i guess.So many fails,one by one,it lost its faith.

Like i did.I find myself watching a tv,and than i just start crying.Its the worst feeling in the world.

And all i can think of is ''WHY?!''.

I cant trust no one now.It became immposible to just think about it.

Thats y i  pretend i dont care.Its much easier for me.Much easier.

People say things but they know they cant hurt me anymore.

U made me feel like a monster.Which i am now.

So..Thank you.No one can hurt me now.But u.

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I know they say that if they dont come back again then its meant to be
But those words aint pulling me through cos im still in love with u :'(

ahha look at u :3 :'(

aaa!!! *_*

u made this for me :3 i LOVE this picture! i remember when u send it to me u were like ''there u go pictures i did this all morning'' hahahah <3
I LOVE U SO MUCH! <3

It's Monday.I used to be happy at this day.Actually i used to be happy at every day of the week but this one is special.Hm..i used ''is''.Well no,it WAS speciall.
It was the time when we watched eachother on camera.
Wow...I  can't believe how happy and exited was i..When i looked at u i though in myself is it possible?How it can be that u were so preety? O.o
You were like the preetiest guy i have ever seen..Like the hundred of butterflies came in me and started dancing..
I know its dumb but i felt llike it was ''love on a first sight''.I could cry how happy i was..How preety u were..And when i said something funny..Oh God..u'd bring out ur little gorgeous smile..And i knew everything is worht it..But i felt pain..I dont know why..I just did..
I cant explane the feeling i felt every time i saw u..i never felt that way.I LOVE U SO MUCH..
I dont know what to do anymore..

How can i think of a better tomorrow when yesterday took evrything i had???

Your one and only.Your the only one i want.

I dont know why am i scared?!
i have been here before.It will be one more night of pain,tears,loneliness.

Only God know's how much im suffering.

He takes the spear meant for a wreck like me,His presence make sense as it creates a scene of pleasure in my mind,where he'll go I must follow to endure everlasting happiness and harmony that my soul craves for,He takes the sun when he walks away but he always saves the day,
I can feel him come down the alley of my heart's fatal desire to eternally love a goddess,Hes garnishes all that he touches with a golden sparkle of hope and pure devotion.

His eyes have inspired the hopeless to fly among angels in the skies of a far world,
My spirit silently cries to be guarded by hia golden wings then I'll never feel cold or fear ever again,
Our void of mystery tears me apart with blunt thoughts as my mind walks in the air whenever I walk alone,My deep silent minor heaven longs for an angel to embrace its misunderstood fields of faith and hope,

He cries in my arms as I embrace his spirit.

End me now.

Kill the core of me, For I know not what has become of me,
Pierce my heart with a red-hot dagger of truth and wisdom,
The end of me stares closely waiting for my wrong and fatal move,
Will I rise above its mortal spite?

Hope fights fear as my mind battles a body of
Thoughts of the years dead to all,
My wounded life bleeds innocence every time
I see her die in my arms, The core of me rests on
An unmarked headstone in the grave of the forsaken,

Shame and blame glares with a kiss that leaves
Me dead in my mortal realm,I fall first as the ghosts
Of the victimized tear my soul to ashes, The burning
Bridge of misery is no more...as the killing of me starts
At midnight, But I have to rise above this broken rush
Of emotions and become what I was.

Oh i could say that i’ll be all you need..

Wish i could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish i could say to you
That i’ll always stay with you
But baby that’s not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that’s something i can’t do
Oh i could say that i’ll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know i’d only hurt you
I know i’d only make you cry
I’m not the one you’re needing
I love you, goodbye

I hope someday you can find some way to understand i’m only doing this for you
I don’t really wanna go
But deep in my heart i know this is the kindest thing to do
You’ll find someone who’ll be the one that i could never be
Who’ll give you something better
Than the love you’ll find with me
Oh i could say that i’ll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know i’d only hurt you
I know i’d only make you cry
I’m not the one you’re needing
I love you, goodbye
Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as i love you
Oh i don’t wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But i’ll never be the one you’re needing
I love you, goodbye
Baby, its never ganna work out
I love you, goodbye

Someday someone's gonna love me the way i want u to need me..

Someday you'll gonna realize 
One day you'll see this through my eyes 
But then i won't even be there 
I'll be happy somewhere 
Even if i can't 

I know 
You don't really see my worth 
You think your the last guy on earth 
Well I've got news for you 
I know I'm not that strong 
But it won't take long 
Won't take long 


Coz someday, someone's gonna love me 
The way, i wanted you to need me 
Someday, someone's gonna take your place 
One day I'll forget about you 
You'll see, i won't even miss you 
Someday, someday 

But now 
I know you can't tell 
I'm down,and I'm not do anyway 
But one day these tears 
They will all run dry 
I won't have to cry 
Sweet goodbye 


Coz someday, someone's gonna love me 
The way, i wanted you to need me 
Someday, someone's gonna take your place 
One day I'll forget about you 
You'll see, i won't even miss you 

Someday, someday

But somewhere down the road our roads are gonna cross again..

We had the right love
At the wrong time
Guess I always knew inside
I wouldn't have you for a long time

Those dreams of yours
Are shining on distant shores
And if they're calling you away
I have no right to make you stay

But somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours
Will come to see
That you belong with me
]
Sometimes good-byes are not forever
It doesn't matter if you're gone
I still believe in us together
I understand more than you think I can
You have to go out on your own
So you can find your way back home

And somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours
Will come to see
That you belong with me
Letting go is just another way to say
I'll always love you so

We had the right love
At the wrong time
Maybe we've only just begun
Maybe the best is yet to come
'Cause

Somewhere down the road
Our roads are gonna cross again
It doesn't really matter when
But somewhere down the road
I know that heart of yours
Will come to see
That you belong
With me

<3

My life.

i'll find someone like u.

Thing's change,doesen't mean they get better.

It seems like this is never going to end.

:/

one of our conversations ^_^

Danas
Azra: so u were saying?x

Mathew
how much i miss you and how sorry i was i ever mistreeted you and that im such an idiot for almost loosing you  x

Azra
wow this spells ahhahaha x x  its okay  dont worry about it im used to it now so whatever u do it will be okay x

Mathew
 i hope so x

Azra
but..do u love more ur gf or me?x

Mathew
you x
but please dont tell her that :( x
u know the only reson im not with u is coz ur so far away :(  x

Azra
no im telling her right now.

Mathew
wa :O

Azra
hahahaha im joking babe x hahahahah :D
ur so scared :P x
hahahahahhahaahahahaha ii love that :D x

Mathew
aha  u scared me then :p x
then id have two dads trying to kill me aha x
x

Azra
ahahhahaha x well it doesent matter i mean even if she knows,she'll prob tell u like ull never see her bla bla
x

Mathew
aha x
u need to get a cam for your laptop :p  x

Azra
no no
x
watch ur gf now! :p
x

Mathew
 x
aha x x

Azra
yep yep  :p :D

Mathew
aha but i wanna see my babe :( x

Azra
r u sure im urs x

Mathew
well ur who evers u want to be :( x
but id like u to be mine :( x

Azra
u know im urs [:x but u cant have like a couple of them in one time it bothers me ><

Mathew
xx i love you lots x x x

Azra
do u mathew :p x

Mathew
i doo  x x

Azra
oh okay u said i do so we're married now ahahhahaha jk x
[:

Mathew
aha :p azra saville   x

Azra
aha nice nice x

Mathew
:D z

Azra
u should get married with someone who deserves u [:

Mathew
u deserve better thn me  x

Azra
I DO that correct x but i wouldnt be happy with anyone else but u  x

Mathew
 x
id only marry you
i dont think id marry anyone els

Azra
yusyus u would marry someone else

Mathew
u cn only marry the person u love the most
for as long as ur around its only you  x
im off now i need sleep for work tmorrow x x  x
night night x x x
love you x

Azra
babe i dont believe u because u said u wouldnt hurt me and be with someone else and u r ><
haj oke xd
bye babe i love u much more   <33

Mathew
i love you lots and lots x x <33

23:46
<33
Mathew nije na mreži

Oh how i love you..The pain won't go away :'(

ur just gonna stand there,and enjoy u ruined me..thats okay,because life takes back to u every thing.

:'(

i really really do :'( so much :'(

:'(

And why can't u just hold me? :/

Comfortable as I am
I need your reassurance
And comfortable as you are
You count the days

But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I'd choose to go
And if i liked rejection
I'd audition
And if I didn't love you
You would know

And why can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care
still care

You say you see the light now
At the end of this narrow hall
I wish it didn't matter
I wish I didn't give you all

But if I wanted silence
I would whisper
And if I wanted loneliness
I'd choose to go
And if i liked rejection
I'd audition
And if I didn't love you
You would know

And why can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care

Poor little misunderstood baby
No one likes a sad face
But I can't remember life without him
I think I did have good days
I think I did have good days


And why(why) can't you just hold me
And how come it is so hard
And do you like to see me broken
And why do I still care 

You're always on my mind.You're the only one for me.

Angel eyes.You have angel eyes.

Cause when it comes to lovin' honey, I'll live and die for you.

It ain't no crime, baby, oh that you're so fine
But for your love I'd walk the line
I don't want to hurt you baby, or break your heart
I don't wanna leave you lonely, or tear your world apart

Chorus:
I wanna love you like you've never loved before
I wanna love you, then come crawling back for more

Yeah I want more, like never before, yeah

Tell me all your troubles baby, I'll kiss away the tears
I'll hold you in my arms for a thousand years
Oh tell me all your dreams, I'll try to make 'em come true
Cause when it comes to lovin' honey, I'll live and die for you.

I count the days without you by my side.

Gave me your heart, gave me everything you had
When I was down and needed you the most
Showed me love when I knew not what love was
You shared your laughs and kissed away the tears
You're my life, you're the hand that leads me through
Forever, baby, I'll keep on loving you
I would crawl for a million miles, just to kiss the lips that made me smile
Oh, that made me smile
I was blind, I was on the run
The night has a thousand eyes, a heart but one, oh, the heart but one
I just melt when your eyes meet mine
Oh the thought of holding you, oh just the thought of
Chorus:
It's all your love (it's all your love) that keeps me hanging on (hangin' on)
I count the days without you by my side
It's all your love (it's all your love)
That keeps my dreams alive (dreams alive)
And girl I can't thank you enough
For all your love
Tell me, child, will you love me when I grow old
Will your tender touch be the same?
'Cause your heart means to me a world of gold
And without you, baby, I'd be lost and cold
You make me feel like a superman
I could take on the whole world with just one hand, oh, just one hand
Girl, you make me feel so alive
I could climb the highest mountain and touch the sky, oh, yes I can
I can't wait to make love tonight
Just the thought of holding you, oh just the thought of
chorus
(Solo)
chorus
It keeps me hangin', keeps me hangin' on
It's all your love that keeps me hangin' on
It's all your love (it's all your love) that keeps my dreams alive
And girl I can't thank you enough for all your love..

Babe now ur gone..:'(

She's gone,
Out of my life.
I was wrong,
I'm to blame,
I was so untrue.
I can't live without her love.

In my life
There's just an empty space.
All my dreams are lost,
I'm wasting away.
Forgive me, girl.

(Chorus)

Lady, won't you save me?
My heart belongs to you.
Lady, can you forgive me?
For all I've done to you.
Lady, oh, lady.

She's gone,
Out of my life.
Oh, she's gone.
I find it so hard to go on.
I really miss that girl, my love.

Come back into my arms.
I'm so alone,
I'm begging you,
I'm down on my knees.
Forgive me, girl.

(Chorus x2)

Lady, oh, lady.
My heart belongs to you.
Lady, can you forgive me?
For all I've done to you. 

I can't stop lovin' you.

I remember the days when our lives were so complete
We had each other, love was all we would need
But now you have changed since the first day that we met
You found a new lover, it's me you want to forget
You tried to tell me our love was in vain
I'm a victim of your love babe, and you're to blame

Chorus:
You can't stop the rain from fallin', you can't stop the sun shining through
Cause I'll be there forever holdin', you can't stop me lovin' you

Now that you're gone, life is empty and cold
Oh how I miss having you to hold
My nights are sleepless, I'll never be the same
Living without you I'm going insane
And as I sit here wipin' tears from my eyes
How can I make you come to realize

chorus

Well I'll be here, ready and waiting, waiting to love you
Everything that I do reminds me of you
You can't stop me from lovin' you

:'(

You're all I need You're EVERYTHING..

Turns out that everything I say to you Comes out wrong and never comes out right

Since the moment I spotted you,
Like walking round with little wings on my shoes
My stomach's filled with the butterflies... ooo and it's alright
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I'm never going to come down
If I said I didn't like it then you know I'd lied
ooo

[Pre-Chorus:]
Everytime I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Turns out that everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right

[Chorus:]
So I'll say 'why don't you and I get together and take on the world
and be together forever
Heads we will and tails we'll try again'
So I say 'why don't you and I hold each other and fly to the moon
and straight on to heaven
Cause without you they're never going to let me in'

When's this fever going to break?
I think I've handled more than any man can take
I'm like a love-sick puppy chasing you around
ooo and it's alright
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I'm never going to come down
If said I didn't like it then you know I'd lied

[Pre Chorus - repeat]
[Chorus - repeat]

And slowly I begin to realize this is never gonna end
Right about the same time you walk by
And I say 'Oh here we go again, oh'

[Pre Chorus - repeat]
[Chorus - repeat x2 to fade]

Your b-day.

Today its ur b-day..
I wish so much i was there..i'd give u such  amazing prezent..
I'm..I'm falling down every day more and more..
Babe i want to be with u! :'(
Sometimes,when i go to bed,i hope u'll rap ur hands over me and hug me :3 :'( I have never been into this ..Never..

I don't know anything at all..

Love of my life, my soulmate
You're my best friend
Part of me like breathing
Now half of me is left

I don't know anything at all
Who am I to say you love me
I don't know anything at all
& who am I to say you need me

Color me blue I'm lost in you
Don't know why I'm still waiting
Many moons have come & gone
Don't know why I'm still searching

Don't know anything at all
& who am I to say you love me
I don't know anything at all
& who am I to say you need me

Hmmm hmmm mmm
Uhhh oohhh aahhh
Hooo aahhh ohh ohhh

Now you're a song I love to sing
Never thought it feels so free
Now I know what's meant to be
& that's okay with me

But who am I to say you love me
& who am I to say you need me
& who am I to say you love me

Mmmm Hmmm

I don't know anything at all
& who am I to say you love me
I don't know anything at all
& who am I to say you need me
I don't know anything at all

I don't know anything at all
I don't know anything at all
I don't know anything at all

And the tears come streaming down your face when you lose something you can't replace.

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And on your face I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And on your face I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

damn,what i'd do to have u near..

I'm preapering to go to bed..
I wish u r there so we can cuddle kiss eachother.I'm so miserablle..I dont know how to take it anymore!
Babe please HELP ME!
God doesent want to help me,he is giving me shit every fucking day,so at least u help me a littlebit!
U r in relation ship on fb now with that ugly shit!..Cant u see anything?!..God..

Im so bad..So bad..

I was looking at u at the camera today,it was like my whole world fell into water.

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things
Will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

I gues i'll be good without ya..

I wanna say ur name but the pain starts again.

Will you think of me, 
in time? 
It's never my luck, 
So never mind. 
I wanna say your name, 
But the pain starts 
again, 
It's never my luck, 
So never mind. 

And I had a dream that you were with me , 
it wasn't my fault, 
you rolled me over, 
flipped me over, 
like a somersault. 
That doesn't happen to me 
I've never been here before 
I saw forever in my never, 
And I stood outside her 
Heaven. 

Will you wait for me, 
In time? 
It's never my luck, 
So never mind. 
And, yeah, I lost a lot of what I 
don't expect to ever 
return 
I tend to push `em 'till the pushings turn from 
hurting to burn, 
I always take them to that place I thought they wanted 
to go, 
But end up dancing 'round 
this clown commands, 
applause at a show... 


I had a dream that you were with me , 
It wasn't my fault, 
You rolled me over, 
flipped me over, 
A somersault. 
And that doesn't happen to me 
I've never been here before 
I saw forever in my never, 
And I stood outside her 
Heaven 
Her heaven, 
Heaven, 
Heaven. 

And I could only dream of you and sleep, 
but I never see sunlight again, 
I can try to be with you , but somehow I'll end up just losing a friend, 
I can only reach for you 
relate to you, 
I'm losing my friend... 
Where did she go? 
Where? 

I had a dream that you were with me , 
It wasn't my fault, 
you rolled me over, 
flipped me over, 
like a somersault. 
That doesn't happen to me 
I've never been here before 
I saw forever in my never, 
And I stood outside her 
Heaven 
I stood outside her heaven 
Let me in your heaven... 

I wanna live inside your heaven.