U dont deserve anything from me anymore.

Now i know that everything ur brother was saying is truth.
u fucking son of a bitch!!!
I WANTED TO BE THERE FOR U AND U THROW MY LOVE UNDER UR FEET AND USED ME IN THE MOST HURTFULL WAY HOW COULD U DO THAT IDIOT?!
DONT U FEEL ANYTHING ?! U DONT HAVE HEART AND U MADE ME NOT HAVE ONE 2!
OH GOD..THIS IS TOO MUCH..

I just cant forgive you :/
Why is it so hard?I wonder every night what dou do.Are u sleeping or ur thinking how awful u were to me :/

You said this could only get better. 
There's no rush, 'cause we have each other. 
You said this would last forever, 
But now i doubt if i was your only lover. 

Are we just lost in time? 
I wonder if your love's the same. 
'Cause I'm not over you 

Baby, don't talk to me. 
I'm trying to let go 
Not loving you is harder then you know. 
'Cause girl you're driving me so crazy 

How can i miss you if you never would stay? 
If you need time i guess I'll go away. 
Inside me now there's only heartache and pain. 
So where's the fire? 
You've become the rain. 

Are we just lost in time? 
I wonder if your love's the same 
'cause I'm not over you. 

Baby, don't talk to me 
I'm trying to let go 
Not loving you is harder then you know, 
('cause girl your driving me so crazy) 

And if you don't want me then 
i guess I'll have to go.. 
Not loving you is harder then you know. 

yeah 


So I'll make the call, 
and I'll leave today 
I'm gonna miss you 'cause i love you baby 
Yeah, I'll make the call 
I'm leaving today 

Leaving always drives me crazy. ]x2] 

Baby, don't talk to me 
I'm trying to let go. 
Not loving you is harder 
Then you know, 

yeah 

Baby, don't talk to me 
I'm trying to let go (I'm trying to let go) 
Not loving you is harder 
Then you know, 
('cause girl your driving me so crazy) 

and if you don't want me then 
i guess I'll hav'ta go! (I guess I'll hav'ta go) 
not loving you is harder then you know 
(girl your driving me so crazy) 

Baby, don't talk to me 
I'm trying to let go. 
Not loving you is harder, then you know, 
girl your driving me so crazy.

Between You and I,he could never compare to you.Maybe it's all for the best but i just dont see any good in this,no.,

U made me happy as i never was.
Now..Wow..i feel like im carring so many nifes..I've been through a lot.And i shoudnt have.It is just too much for me.And still I'm asking myself how could i bee so dumb?! 
I'm running in circles.I feel like there is no way out! O_o

I'm going back to the start..

Betrayed.

Small word but lots of meanings and pain.

So here I am,once again..Betrayed by the person that means everything to me.

What can i say?Im dumb,I already know that.

But theres smth more.Its not the same anymore.

You r back with her.I cant believe it.

I cant even cry anymore.Im not sure i love u anymore either.Actually i know i love u.I always will.

But..Its deep inside.It cant get out anymore.It was calling u so many times for help but u throw it away.

It hurts it so much to come out now,and say ''I love u''.

It has hiden DEEP inside where not even i can make it to come back.

Its scared,i guess.So many fails,one by one,it lost its faith.

Like i did.I find myself watching a tv,and than i just start crying.Its the worst feeling in the world.

And all i can think of is ''WHY?!''.

I cant trust no one now.It became immposible to just think about it.

Thats y i  pretend i dont care.Its much easier for me.Much easier.

People say things but they know they cant hurt me anymore.

U made me feel like a monster.Which i am now.

So..Thank you.No one can hurt me now.But u.